Being on my meds sent me on a crazy “depression” filled with.. (OnlyFans)

Being on my meds sent me on a crazy “depression” filled with insomnia 😂
However, I used those sleepless nights of going down memory lane to help me understand my past. After a childhood of abuse, sexual assault and abandonment, I couldn’t understand why I felt at fault, why I still wanted the family members who hurt me to recognize my existence, and most of all how they could abuse me, and then leave me... as if I did something wrong. 
It’s common for those who go through trauma to feel these things I know that, but I just couldn’t understand what I did wrong. It took me going through it all on reply to finally understand.
None of that was my fault. I am strong 💪 I’ll never receive an apology and that’s ok, because I’ll choose to forgive them.  They will never recognize me, I remind them of their demons, I remind them of all the sin and hurt they caused. I could bask in my pain and live an angry life, or I could take my story and help others get through it as well, I’ll never fully heal and that’s ok! It’s ok to be a little damaged. But we need to learn to love ourselves and put all the pieces back together ♥️