some thoughts regarding continuation of SW i was googling m.. (OnlyFans)

some thoughts regarding continuation of SW

i was googling my main art username to find some old art to show my boyfriend and the search that showed up was "[name] onlyfans."

i knew this would happen but seeing it has really struck a chord with me and i can't stop thinking about it.

i have already set up my f*nsly and made a date to start posting again, but as i rest up from a vacation trip with my boyfriend and the amount of freelance work i'll have waiting for me back home... seeing that search has made my want and passion to continue SW kinda just... die... and now i don't know if i actually want to continue doing this anymore.

in the end i don't want to be known for this yknow? art has always been my love, passion, and identifier and i feel like i kinda let SW take that away from me.

i have a sense of guilt for prepping for a return only to last minute actually just want to back out?

i don't know if these feelings will subside and it's honestly making me stress out about returning home because thats the timeline i gave myself to create new content to queue again, but it's just stressing me out.

what are your thoughts? i really like this platform as a side hustle, but i don't know if i have the heart to continue anymore.